19 weeks - maybe even half way there already!

Today I am 19 weeks. Most would consider 20 weeks as being half way there, but since I did have Connor at 39 weeks, maybe the same will be said of this baby and I've hit the half way mark today! A girl can dream, right?


I'm feeling pretty good here lately. I still get sick almost every day around 5pm, but it doesn't last long and as soon as I eat dinner, it's over. It does suck when it happens when I'm in town or in the car because food is not always readily available.


Weight gain - No idea since I haven't weighed myself yet. I normally try to weigh myself on the Wii fit Monday or Tuesday mornings. My husband went in super late to work this morning because of the snow (yay! snow!) and I certainly didn't want to stand naked in the living room while he stood there and laughed at me. The scale in the bathroom doesn't seem to have changed much, so I'm assuming not a lot of weight gain since 1.5 weeks ago. I actually feel like I don't eat enough, but my belly gets so full so quickly. My newest craving, besides my precious, precious watermelon is pizza rolls! And only if I fry them in a nice pot of grease. Talk about a heart attack! 


Baby movement- Finally! I mean, I've felt for sure movement since 13w 4d, but he/she is finally making his/her presence known more than a couple of times a day. I've felt tons of movement today. Although it's still small movements, if I catch it right I can feel the kicks with the palm of my hand. I always get this big goofy smile on my face every time. It never gets old! I'm trying to soak it up as much as I can, since this will probably be the last time I ever experience it.


Irrational Fear this week: I'm almost past the incompetent cervix now, although I'll probably bring up perhaps doing another culture when I see my doc here in about 3 weeks just to make sure the discharge I've been having since the beginning is still normal.
But anyway, my irrational (or not that irrational??) fear is that my child has Down Syndrome or some type of neural tube defect. My NT scan with the blood test came back normal but I never did the triple screen between 15-17 weeks. My doctor is of the mind that if everything looks good at the NT scan, then the triple screen a few weeks later isn't really needed. I could have had it if I had remembered, but truthfully, it slipped my mind. So anyway, I've been running around here the last few weeks thinking I have a perfectly healthy baby in there. Also over the past few weeks I've started reading some blogs that I've come to really care about. Most seem to be about fertility issues, and while I don't have that, it's been so touching reading about their journeys to get their own little miracle baby. I've also learned from reading them that sometimes things don't go exactly as planned. I won't get into details, since it's not my story to share but lets just say that my confidence in just one test is sort of shaky at the moment.  


I told my mom about my strange feelings this morning and she said "if that happens, that we just deal" and that made me feel better. Obviously that story I just mentioned was a special case, but it goes to show that you just never know what could happen. Lets just say that I am very happy that I have an ultrasound in 5 days. Funnily enough, every time I start to worry I feel my little man (or girl) start moving, like he's saying "Mom, chill. I got this". :)


But anyway, feel free to think I am a lunatic.