17 weeks! (and 1 day, since all pregnant mama's know how important those days are)

17 weeks already! 3 more weeks and I'll be half way there, which seems crazy!

Not a lot to report this week.

Weight gain- I'm thinking somewhere between 5-6lbs up at this point. It sounds like a lot to me for some reason, although I'm actually smaller at this point that I was with my other two pregnancies. My next appointment is on Thursday, so I'll be able to say for certain how much I've gained so far then. I just keep saying in my head "you can lose it after the baby is born" and "you WANT a chubby baby" so that helps. I probably sound neurotic and insane about this issue, but I had such a bad experience the first time around by gaining 45 lbs with E (that took me 9mo to get off) so I don't want to go through that again.

Baby movement - definitely feeling movement now. Not constant yet, but enough throughout the day that is eases my mind. He/she's been a bit quiet today, although last night before bed I felt a nice case of the hiccups. :) Everything I read says that you probably won't feel them every day yet, yet I DO feel kicks everyday makes me happy. I hope I have a very active bub within the next week or so.

Now on to something that is not baby related. We got a letter in the mail today stating that a sex offender has moved in 3 houses down. It's definitely a strange feeling knowing that and having the cops actually send you something notifying you of it. He was charged with a sexual assault level 4 and theft. He's also labeled as a risk 3 which means they think he will reoffend. That's what freaks me out the most. His victim was a 15yr old, so I'm hoping it was a case of a then-22yr old guy having an underage relationship was a then-15yr old girl. Not that that's ok, because that's still horrible, but the my freak-out level would be a whole lot different than it would be if he was charged with assaulting a small child. I don't know, I feel wrong even thinking that because I'm sure a mother of a 15yr old would think that's awful, but I'm a mom of a 5yr old daughter so that's where my mind is.

Blah. DH is all "lock the doors and load the guns!" so he's definitely in protect mode right now. One of the guys in his Army unit is a police officer, so he emailed him asking him for any information he has on this guy and the case. I think both me and my DH would feel a lot better knowing the full story.

But ANYWHO, back to better things. A belly pic! Baby is definitely growing and I'm starting to get a mixture of small maternal smiles and "oh man, how old IS she" (lol) when I go out in public.

16 weeks!

I can't believe here in another month I'll officially be half-way done with this pregnancy. Some days I feel like it's flying by and others I feel like it's going at a snails pace. I'm sort of confused on which way I WANT it to be, because hoping the weeks go by fast is sort of like wishing my kids' lives away. Especially C's. I was pregnant when E was two as well and most of my memories of that year are centered around being pregnant. I hate thinking that when C is older and I think back to when he was an adorable 2yr old, being pregnant will be all I remember. I'm in a weird, melancholy mood, I guess.

Let's see.

-Weight gain. No idea since I'm too afraid to actually weigh myself..lol. I'm afraid that I'm not doing as well as I should be this time around. I weighed myself (with clothes on, at 9 at night) on the scale in the bathroom. It put me at 105, so that scale says I've gained about 5lbs so far. I'm making myself pull the Wii Fit out in the morning. I'm only going by what the doctors scale says, but at least I'll get an idea. I hate how much I am bothered by gaining weight, especially since I've had no problems getting it back off after labor. Le sigh.

-Movements. A little bit. I feel him 2-3 times a day most days. I have to be laying on my side to feel him at home and, strangely enough, when I'm driving I get little flutters and kicks. I think C was moving more at this stage, but I try to remember that this baby is probably a bit smaller than he was at this stage. With E I didn't feel movements until 16w 6d.

-Cravings. Fresh fruit and vegetables. That is actually a good craving but I eat them so fast that I run out and then have to settle for fruit roll-ups and cereal, which is NOT good. Haha.

15 week update

Things seem to be chugging right along here lately. Last week, at the time, seemed to draaaag on, but now when I sit and think "I'm 15 weeks pregnant" and literally feel like I should be somewhere closer to 6 or 7! Haha! No complaining here since I can't wait to get to the "good" part of pregnancy.

Let's see. No idea on weight gain. I had originally planned on weighing myself this morning but just didn't have the energy to get the Wii fit out. The scale in the bathroom says I'm about 3-4 pounds up from the start of my pregnancy but it can vary by almost 5lbs sometimes so I don't use it often.

Not sure on movement yet. Last Friday night I was laying in bed watching tv and I suddenly felt 3 quick, VERY faint thumps very low on my belly. I immediately turned to DH and said "I think I felt the baby" but I haven't felt much since then, so who knows. Also, although I am technically 15 weeks, baby is probably measuring more like 14w 2d as of right now. So I try to keep that in the back of my mind when I start freaking out that I had already felt noticeable movement with C by now.

I'm still getting sick every so often, which is about as far away from C's pregnancy as you can get. Besides the morning sickness and my skin breaking out that makes me think girl, I'm starting to get on the boy bandwagon a bit. He/she seems chill in there, just like C. Plus DH and I had a good long talk about having 2 boys close together in age and Emma being the only girl. I think a major factor with me being sad about no more girls was just the cute clothes and bows that come along with it. But the hubby explained that if we DO have two boys than I can totally spoil Emma rotten with clothes, accessories, and fun activities (gymnastics, dancing, etc) that I might not otherwise get to do if I had another girl who needed these things. AND it will be so much cheaper to dress C and this new baby similar since boy clothes are also notoriously cheaper. Of course, I would love this little guy with everything in me and once he's here I wouldn't have a single "what if", but it was sort of nice to talk through all of the silly stuff I had had going through my head.

ANYWHO, I looked like utter crap today, so it's just a belly shot this week.

A definite change from 2 weeks ago! Whenever I start worrying about weight gain, I look at these pictures and realize that this sweet baby is indeed growing! I love it!

Hopefully next time I post it will be to inform you (myself) that there is baby kicks!

Some fun little gender predictions.

Even though the UT said boy (which means I probably have a little boy peanut in there) I still have this girl feeling that probably won't go away until my anatomy scan here in about 5 weeks. It's bad, ya'll. I couldn't sleep last night because I kept thinking about all the "what if's"

- What if we go in the scan next month and she says "oops, it's a girl!"
- What if she STILL says boy and then when I give birth, it's a girl!
-What if she says it's a girl at my next scan, but he's really a boy?!

It just went on and on. I almost regret asking for the gender guess since she couldn't give me a straight answer. She seemed confident, but when she follows up with "but I have been wrong at this stage before" it makes me wonder. Plus, I've had 2 different friends look at the ultrasound and their first guess has been girl.

So last night, just for fun, I did a few gender tests online. Out of the 3 tests, 1 came back for boy and 2 for girl. I am insane.

***And I just want to apologize to my sweet boy that if you are indeed a handsome little man in there, Mama's sorry for not knowing right away! ;-)

NT scan!

I had my NT scan yesterday afternoon. I was so pumped to see this little baby after 4 long weeks. It's amazing just how much they change and grow in a month at this stage. No more little leg and arm buds!

I love the Ultrasound tech that I see at my doctors office. She's so funny and she talks the entire time you're in there. At one point we were talking about baby kicks and she said that a few weeks ago after a large meal of mexican food, she was feeling some kicks too. Haha!

Baby looked great! Nuchal fold was 1.4mm and she said anything under 2 is good, so that's one less thing to worry about. I won't know full results for another week, but these type of things I don't worry much about.  Like Connor, this babe seems pretty chill. He/she kept putting his little hands up above his head and sticking his hands toward his mouth. Babe is also still measuring between 3-5 days behind, but still no change in my due date. I'm glad for that because I certainly wouldn't want to repeat a week of pregnancy. Heartbeat was 159.

She seemed like she was wrapping up the scan so I asked if she had any guess on gender. She said "you want me to look" and then spent a good 10 minutes just chasing this little baby around to get a good look. She then said "I don't think your daughter is going to be happy" (I'd told her earlier that Em was wanting a sister) and then said that she was pretty confident baby was a BOY! Pretty shocking since I was so sure he was a she! Of course, nothing is a 100% until closer to 20 weeks, so I'm not rushing off and buying that coming home outfit or anything, but it's sort of nice to call him a him instead of "it". I told Steven that if I spend the next 6 weeks calling him "him" and then find out it's a girl, I wonder if I would be sad? I did have a few instances of almost mourning a girl, since we won't get to experience that again. But Connor was SUCH a sweet baby, so much more cuddly than Emma (as I've heard boys tend to be), plus poor Connor needs a brother. Emma has a million friends from school, gymnastics, square-dancing, and cousins so I'm not worried about her having two brothers at all. Just a few nights ago, when I really thought he was a she, I mentioned that I was going to miss not having a sweet baby boy anymore. :)  I think it's harder since I've already have a girl and a boy. I know what I'm going to miss with either gender.

This has become incredibly long winded, so I'll wrap it up. A few pics of our possible handsome little guy.

13w 3d appointment

Had my normal doctor appointment this morning. I had been slightly anxious for it because I've been a pessimistic monster this entire pregnancy for some reason. I'm more and more sure that this will be our last because I just don't want to deal with all the worrying and what-ifs that come with pregnancy again.

Anywho, weight - I gained a whopping 1.5lbs in the last 4 weeks! Yay, so happy about that! The Wii has me gaining 1.5lbs over the last TWO WEEKS, so I'm just ignoring that and sticking with my doctors scale..haha! Doctor came in and I heard a sweet little heartbeat. It wasn't as loud as I'm used to, so babe must really be back in there. It was beating 160, so I'm still feeling girl at the moment. I also heard it moving around, which means it IS moving around, even if I'm still not feeling those first real kicks yet. Next appointment (besides my ultrasound tomorrow) is in 4 weeks, with my anatomy scan 2 weeks after that. Can't wait!

13 week pic.

And here's a pic of my cool man, Connor. He doesn't go anywhere without the glasses. :)